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Name: Erika
Birthday: 9/6/1987
Gender: Female


Interests: in my spare time i love to sing whether it comes in the shower, karaoke, or in front of people it's what i love to do. dancing definitely helps me break the ice and been doing it since i was young. a big fan of writing poems, quotes, songs, etc. music is a big part of my life. without it, life would be boring. i like to keep people happy and stay on the positive side of things. WORDS OF WISDOM. thanks the Lord everyday for what he's given me. i have a goal in life to help those who are in need by turning that frown upside down :) basically, i'm just your happy-go-lucky girl. yee!
Occupation: stay in school :)


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Member Since: 5/24/2006

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Saturday, November 24, 2007


concerned much?


It's weird. As much as I wanna move on and forget about what he did, you can't help but to get weak and be concerned with what's happening in his life. I heard from a good friend that he intentionally went through with his mother's decision. Even though she wanted to threaten him, and tell him to get out of the house numerous times due to brought up mistakes he has done, I'm sure it was more of a threat rather than something real. But I've told him before to stick up for himself, be a good boy, get on his mom's good side and hope for the best. And now that things are done between us, I still get worried over him . Deep down I still really care, and want the best for him because of the fact that he does go through a lot. I'm still not in that right position to talk to him though. Although it wasn't for that long, these feelings I risked were high and on that level as if he was my boyfriend . Still wished we could sit down and talk about it but I guess people like him have their own ways of working through situations.

Christmas season. It's the best!

Laters!

- Erika



Thursday, November 22, 2007


HAPPY THANKSGIVING!


Why hello there. It's that time of the year again where we should all be thankful for the many blessings and gifts God has given us. Most people don't really take into consideration on the opportunities Jesus has given to everyone. And I'll tell you now, I'm very thankful. Even though this year may have been pretty rough, but with lots of optimism, I definitely thank God for guiding me to the right path. You realize many things such as changes, similarities, advantages and disadvantages in life and what I want is for me to stay the same person, same personality, a giver not a receiver, and to stay away from the drama. I don't know what this feeling is but I feel like I'm starting to grow up. Feels kind of good because the more you learn about yourself and your values, you can teach and share your ideas with the younger generations.

Basically, I don't ask for much, however, I wish that I could be given a second chance on love. I know from the family, second chances are like second nature but as for others, it should be an opportunity given to oneself and for the needs. Thank you God for protecting my family, friends, and loved ones in my life. Please do continue giving me life learning journeys, as well as rekindling burnt chances.

Don't eat too much.

- Erika



Wednesday, November 14, 2007


GUESS WHO'S BACK!




Why hello.
Long time no visit, eh?  This is pretty awkward for me to be coming back on xanga to vent and express my thoughts and feelings but I realized that writing is a great way to help ease the mind and I totally support it ;).

LIFE;  It's been tough and challenging but I'm still surviving and coping with its changes.  I learned that good things don't last forever and it's best to enjoy given oppertunities right now before unexpected changes occur.  I just wanted to say a quick SORRY to God for not really turning to Him when I was having difficulties.  I feel like I just went through with what I felt rather than thinking about how God would want it to work.  And I think I've come to say that I'm coming back to learn more about my faith, go to Him for advice and prayers, and to keep my strength positive.

FAMILY;  Lately it feels like our family isn't as optimistic as I thought.  We have been going through some drama between the aunts and uncles which I never thought would come because I've had so much faith in my family.  Even though there will be some tension between a couple people, I wanna be sure that I will be there to help brighten up the room and to create less tension.  One of the last things I would want is a family full of drama.

LOVE;  Oh, love. My love life has been making me an emotional wreck. I've recently got my heart crushed by this guy that I've risked my feelings for.  I thought he was going to be my next special beau but his way of dealing with relationships came off to be a little to high maintenance. Let's just say that I can't take my mind off him, holding back these tears of mine, and still praying that him and I can talk and work things out. It's still not too late I believe.

"Lord, please grant that him and I can work things out for people do deserve second chances."

SCHOOL;  It's a bit boring. I know I've probably been lagging and struggling lately. There's a reason behind this. You know what it is? I HATE MY MAJOR. I didn't wanna do nursing in the beginning but being a filipino, it is a major that most parentals would force their children to educate in. Luckily, my parents somewhat realized that nursing isn't for me so I will most likely be doing Medical Assisting this spring 2008. And let me make a note to myself: This is my future. Without success, leads to failure, nothing, nada, pure sadness.

So I've pretty much covered everything. The major problem that's inflicting my mind is basically my love life. It's really hard for me to stay strong right now. And the breakup pretty much was stupid. I'm still keeping him in my prayers. Hoping him and i can talk things over. It's all in God's hands. Please Lord stay on my side.

Until sooner than later,


- Erika


Wednesday, July 18, 2007


been a while...


hi xangers. it's been a while since i last blogged. i've been busy with summer school and other stuff. anyways, what's new with me? well lately i've been realizing many different things. for once, i realized that it's hard to depend on people rather than always assuming that everything is going to be normal. yet things change out of the ordinary and all there is to do is to just back out of it and not really handle things unless it's ready to be handled. i don't really wanna go into full detail but that's how i feel. i think that the people that i surround myself with make me feel brand new, and they let me open up more and at the same time stay who i am. so i have a couple of new youtube videos up and i'm going to post up one of them for you guys. it was taken from my friend's cotillion in vallejo. the song is called "on my knees" by jaci velasquez. i had lots of fun and hope to gain more opportunities in singing in the future.


God Bless.

- Erika



Saturday, June 16, 2007


survey time =)

SO I FOUND THIS REALLY GOOD SURVEY ONLINE AND NOT THRU MYSPACE BULLETINS. I THOUGHT THIS SURVEY WAS PRODUCTIVE SO I REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT MY ANSWERS AND I THINK YOU SHOULD TOO!


1. What frustrates you the most about the opposite sex?
-- how many guys now a days are all the same. some don't understand the real meaning of love and how simple it is. well since i'm more grown up, i learned to know that love is an easy and simple thing.

2. What frustrates you the most about your own sex (i.e. they give us a bad name)?
-- they say us girls get mad over the stupidest/dumbest things. i totally think it's just a phase depending on how old you are. if you're still young, you might be the type to be like, "why didn't you f&ckin call me?" and etc. but when you're more matured, you gain more trust instead of having such an anger management. ya dig? haha

3. What first draws you to someone?
-- i admit. looks came first. but now it's totally how you live your lifestyle. i think first impressions are a plus. kinda like, "show me what you got!" haha

4. So it's 2007. Who should make the first move?
-- ok first i'm gonna have to say boys because being me, i'm your average shy girl who doesn't have the balls to even go up to a guy. i know, i'm a pussy for that. shuttup! but if i wanna be your friend and all, i wouldn't mind going up to you. there's a difference. if you're cute, i get shy. but if you're friend-quality, then for sure i'd go up to you. haha ok i'm weird!

5. After you get a phone number, how long should you wait to use it?
-- i wait a couple days. i've had people who texted me right off the bat though. but for me, i'd wait a couple days, give him a text or two, and if he calls first, i wouldn't mind calling him back.

6. So, again, it's 2007. Who should pay on the first date?
-- whoever offers first. to me, i'd feel bad if the guy offers to pay because i wouldn't consider it fair even though the guy is trying to be all "gentleman like" you know? so i'd ask him if we can both pay 50-50.

7. What can make or break a first date?
-- what could MAKE a first date would probably be just by meeting a guy, talking about hanging out sometime, grabbing something to eat or movie. and if that's not a date, then you're moded! haha. but what could BREAK a first date would be if his current girlfriend catches the guy cheating on her. then it's all bad from there. haha

8. Have you ever said you'll call and never did? Why?
-- no. i usually tend to call the guy. but i've had guys who said they would call but never did. hey, i don't consider it to be their fault. there's just a lot of homewreckers out there. my goodness!

9. Do you think playing games is part of a relationship, or would you rather lay your hand down right away?
-- no, i think that's hella immature. i don't really like playing games or whatever you call it. there are other ways of enjoying your relationship besides doing that crap. you feel me?

10. How long before the pivotal first kiss?
-- it really just depends. if you and i have that "connection" who knows if it'll lead to a kiss. but i'm not the type to kiss on the first date. basically, i don't rush!!! ...period

11. Best date you've ever been on, and why:
-- long walks. it may sound weird and all but that's when you can really get to know the guy and ask questions and stuff.

12. Worst date you've ever been on, and why:
-- going to the mall. i dunno, it doesn't seem very "date-like" you know? but it's cool because it's "THE MALL" whereas, there's shopping involved. haha

13. How long do you wait before you initiate sex? Are you bothered by first date sex?
-- ok first of all, i think people should wait until they're fully committed to be doing that stuff. relationships aren't just all about sex you perves. and first date sex? those are just for the dunkees, and horndogs. totally not my type of lifestyle to be doing that.

14. So, is it true…are men from Mars, and women from Venus? Are we more different than alike?
-- there are times when men and women could be alike. sometimes girls just love being one of "the boys" and some metrosexual guys just love being with "the girls" to shop and whatnot. but there are times when guys just wanna be with their own gender because they think girls don't understand and same goes for the girls. but at least we could all get along one way or another.

15. Commitment: when do you take that plunge?
-- i'd take the plunge into committing with someone if i've been with him for a long period of time. if we've talked about being together, talked about our future, gained full trust with one another, and if our families love and accepted our relationship, then i think that's when commitment comes in.





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